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…and dealing with stress

We started that season again where things are picking up pace, but I’m stuck on a wheel. Continuing to run my heart out and not getting anywhere it seems. Bloggers would understand with being stagnant in the Instagram game, mom’s would understand because they can’t even use the bathroom alone, everyone has their battle. For me, I have a few projects that I’m working on where I would like to retain a client, turnover a project, and build a platform to enter a new market all whilst keeping up with my daily happenings and wanderings. It’s a lot and I know I seem to complain about being stressed all the bloody time… but it’s that time in my life where I want to build an empire. You’ll just have to bear with me.

Instead of running from the stress or trying to overcome it, I thought about trying to find ways to deal with it. As you may have noticed from Instagram stories, I picked up my fitness routine and fund trying to overcome those personal goals helps alleviate the anxiety looming over my head. Secondly, cutting back on caffeine has proven to help quite a bit. I get tired as my late night/early morning routine doesn’t really allow for cutting back on my caffeine intake, but I think incorporating natural energizing things to my diet will help. Finally, finding some alone time-what I really wanted to talk about.

Looking for a Sanctuary
Looking for a Sanctuary
Looking for a Sanctuary
Looking for a Sanctuary
Looking for a Sanctuary

just me and my thoughts

Part of the city stress comes from other people. On the daily, I’ve noticed, that I’ve found myself getting really annoyed with British bureaucracy and people as their way of operating {seems really backwards and} complicated. It works for them, but it may not sit well in my puzzle. Constantly being surrounded by people, even if I don’t know them, makes me tired. From my flat with my flatmates to the train with strangers to the office and meetings with clients and colleagues-it’s like being stuck in this bubble with humans circulating just over your head-a dizzying effect really. To handle my sanity has been the biggest task of 2017 and that sounds purely like a mental health issue. It’s crazy to think that we are truly never just alone in the highest points of our life-the days where we want it all and have it all. And the moments where we sulk the most, we are alone. I went through this, where I was home separated from my friends and people who I felt I most belonged to. The feeling of being left out, not being involved, and not living the life I want is all I kept experiencing. And now, I chuckle over the fact that I would love just a minute to myself, not a single soul around, just me and {maybe not all of} my thoughts.

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